Note to self...

OK, I really have to start keeping my mouth shut instead of shooting it off when I don't have a darn good reason - it just creates this sense of expectation that ends up falling flat.. way flat.
 
Is that the lesson I'm suppose to learn?
 
No, I don't exactly believe in Karma - especially in its spiritual sense - but I do believe that we keep receiving the lessons we need to learn most until we've learned the lesson.
 
Well, consider me savvy - at least until the next time I get excited about 'what could be' and get met squarely by the 'what is'.
 
If for no other reason, the hope of having learned the lesson is why we shouldn't give up, though that thought has crossed my mind this weekend, if only professionally.
 
Being a potentialist with a bent toward the idealistic can be a lot of hard work.
 
I know, I'm still being cryptic, but for reasonably good reason. My hope is that before September I'll no longer have reason to be so paranoid. Until then, I'll keep trying, and I'll just figure that you're smart enough to generally figure out what I'm blathering on about.