"I'm much better now..."

OK, I guess I'm over it. The despair thing. It was the result of a call back after an interview. They liked me, and thought I interviewed well, blah, blah, blah, but they were going to go with another candidate, blah, blah, blah. I would have never known they were looking for a certain qualification, that I don't have, if they hadn't told me - it wasn't in the posting, it didn't come out in the interview, nothing. Maybe that was just a ruse for not picking me for another reason. Blah, blah, blah.

For a while after, I was on the verge of tears, terrified, and ready to pummel the next moron to enter my space. That's a dangerous combination, and one I've been trying my best to avoid. Then, bad news comes by and THWAK, there I go again. Loosing something I never had in the first place, now that's something to ooze about. I really am a malcontent waiting to happen sometimes. You'd think I'd learn. We should all be glad I resisted blogging during that time.

Time, family, friends, perspective, and trust all helped ease the pain. Laughing, refocusing, and busy work helped too.

Experiences like this one just reaffirm that I'm not perfect. Thank goodness... I was just starting to believe that one again.

More on the other side.