"Go sell crazy somewhere else, we're full up here..."

I've been struggling lately with the idea that 'life shouldn't be such a struggle'. For instance, I was fiddling in my yard with one of those solar powered path lights you can get at Target, trying to straighten it. I pushed it further into the ground only to have it break. Shatter really. 20+ minutes later, I did some patch work with electrical tape and put it back out, not anywhere good as new. We'll see if it ever works again or not.

It's all the 'I just wanted to break off that string in the seem of my pants and now I have a pair of half shorts/half pants' moments that we all encounter. I just seem to be having lots of them lately. It's putting me on edge and I'm generally a bear to be around at times. I know it's all a matter of persepctive. Maybe I'm just experiencing a years worth of those experiences in one week and I'll have the other 51 weeks free. I doubt it though. I'm also growing a bit more pesimistic, can't you tell?

When my wife asked what was wrong, I said I didn't really know - and I don't - but I was just on edge. 'You'll live.' I said, not knowing why, but implying that I wasn't going to go nuts on her. 'Yeah, but will you...' she replied, getting my gist and warning me of the physical pain she'd lay on me if I didn't start getting my act together. I belive her too.

So - insert faith, trust, and submission. I get the idea I've been swimming up-strream this week anyway, and it's time to get with His program.